Happy Anniversary
23 years ago today I married the love of my life, best friend and partner. I could not be more happy then I am today !! I love you so much and can't wait to spend 20+ more years with you !!!
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Sunday, June 30, 2013
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Happy Father's Day
Wanted to give a huge HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to the two great men in my life..
Lonnie with Kayleigh and Nick
and this man..
My Dad with L L K N
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY !!
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Charles M. McFarland ~ Nov. 7, 1932- May 29, 2013
Monday May 20, 2013
Today started out like anyother day.. well, I had to go to the dentist.. which I HATE to do !! So, Lonnie took the day off because I have to be drugged to go..yes, I am that girl ! My appt. was at 1pm and I am sure I was done around 3pm.. on the way home..from what I do remember, Kayleigh called Lonnie on the phone and was hysterical. "Papa had a heart attack" was what I heard. Still not sure what I heard was right, I waited for Lonnie to get off the phone. Yes, my dad had a heart attack and was in the hospital.. in Spokane. We talked about how we were going to get there.. drive, that takes 5ish hours... or fly that takes about 60 min. We flew. Again, I dont remember alot.. so not sure how we got the dogs to Kayleigh, Im going to guess she met us at the airport. And now that I write this.. that must be what happened.. because she took our car too. Our flight took off at 8pm and we got into Spokane around 9pm.. got our car and came right to the hospital. When we got to the hospital, my dad was in CICU. Lonnie had called one of my best friends from when I was little, Barbara Jenkins and told her about my dad, she met us at the hospital. I am sure that I freaked out seeing him.. tubes and wires all over him. I did sleep a little on the floor of the room he was in and then ended up going to his house to sleep some more.
Tuesday May 21, 2013
Today we were back up to the hospital bright and early.. I had to be told what happend all over again. During the night Monday, my dad woke up not being able to breath. He called his neighbor Joan, who told him to call 911 ! My dad did and the ambulance came and took him to Holy Family Hospital. However, they told them that they were not equipped to care for him and transferred him to SHMC. So they did. During this time, my dad was able to tell them it was ok to tube him and do the stints/balloons but nothing else.. No shocking No CPR nothing. So thats what they did. They put a tube down this throat and put 5 stints in and 2 balloons to help his heart. They had him medicaly out with drugs. It was a long wait.
Wed. May 22, 2013
No real change in dad.
Thurs. May 23 2013
Today the took out a balloon and are talking that they may take the tube out on Friday.. :) So happy to hear this !!
Friday May 24, 2013
We got to my dads room around 830am. My Dad was awake !! Not sure what was going on and freaked out !! They took the tube out of his throat and we got to talk a little. It was hard for him to speak. I told him that he had a heart attack and where he was.. he could not believe it and started crying. I thought that he was doing better because he was hungry.. always a good sign. And he was thirsty. Although, we had to limit his intake because of having the tube down his throat, it was swollen and water could end up in his lungs. They had a speech therapist come in and watch him swallow. He seemed to do ok with the thicker things like pudding and a thick cranberry juice. At around 1pm, things started going south. He was having a very hard time breathing and was coughing alot. They asked him if he wanted a tube down again and he said NO. The put what I call a "wind machine" on his face to push air into his lungs. He fought that and took it off a few times. At one point, we took the mask off and he told me to "let him go" .. so now it was up to me.. Do I keep him here to live the way he didnt want to? Or do I let him go? I love my Dad.. and have never wanted to do anything that he told me not to... so, I said we had to let him go. Doctors came in and said that liquid was back in his lungs which caused Pulminary Edema. He was coughing up bloody foam. They said it would not be long before he passed. We moved him up to the 7th floor in a private room and waited. He was awake and was in pain. Even with the morphine. At 330am I told the nurse to go ahead and give him more drugs to help with the pain. He is resting comfortably. (Barb, Kimberlee and De came to see him)
Sat. May 25, 2013
Still resting comfortably. No real change. Barb and Kimberlee came to visit.
Sunday May 26, 2013
Still no real change.. still resting. (Barb and Joey came to visit in the lunchroom)
Monday May 27, 2013
Still resting.. losing weight. But still hanging on. Told him it was ok to leave. Said to go and be with Mom. That I loved him and would not be upset. That he was a strong man, but it was ok to go. And that it was not goodbye.. but see you again someday.
Tues. May 28, 2013
Still resting.. no real change
Wed. May 29, 2013
Today, as I was sitting next to my Dad.. I thought, I would ask the nurses to give him a bath. Also, thought that it may make his temp. go down. So, they said they would come in around 10-10:30am and give him one. They came in and Lonnie and I left and went downstairs to get some coffee.. I then let my friend Cindy know that we were down there and she came also for her lunch. Lonnie said he need to go back up to the room and do some more work. But I had been in the room for 3 days and only left three times, so I was staying downstairs with Cindy. At about 11:50am I said I needed to go back upstairs and headed up. I got to the room about noon and looked at my Dad.. he looked different, but was cleaned up and shaved. But his breathing was "off" to me. I asked Lonnie to come over and look, as Lonnie came over, my Dad took a breath and I let out a sigh of releif. But that was his last breath. He waited for me to come back. I was a mess to say the least. But also knew that my Dad was pain free now and with my Mom, who had died many years earlier.
Thurs. May 30, 2013
We are doing lots of running around today.. dealing with the Will, House and other things.. have not stopped.
Friday May 31, 2013
Did some more running around, took Coco (Dads dog) to the groomers.
Sat. June 1, 2013
Started loading up boxes. Thinking of having a sale.. but so tired, not sure if I want too. Went to De's house for lunch and spent time with her and Kimberlee and her family.. nice to get away for things and try to be happy.
Sun. June 2, 2013
Got up this morning.. drinking coffee in Dads house.. on his computer.. feels a little strange him not here.. was telling Lonnie yesterday, that I feel like he is going to walk through the door and yell at us for moving things around. I always hated getting in trouble and tried very hard not too.. hated to dissapoint him. Still feel like I am going to be grounded for going through his things. Maybe I am still in denial of his death. ....Looking forward to taking my Dad's dog Coco home with us.. or maybe to Kayleigh's house. She is a great dog !
Tues. June 4, 2013
Today Lonnie went to get the truck to start loading up the things we are taking over to our house. Its strange to me to be doing this.. The things we are not taking are going to go to the Mission, to help others. That is something my Dad always liked to do. Help other's that needed it. I did keep a few things like my Dads glasses ect.
Wed. June 5, 2013
We dropped off the house keys at the bank today. Ate lunch and headed out to come home. Lonnie, Coco and myself in the cab of the U-haul turck, pulling the car behind. It is good to be home !
Today started out like anyother day.. well, I had to go to the dentist.. which I HATE to do !! So, Lonnie took the day off because I have to be drugged to go..yes, I am that girl ! My appt. was at 1pm and I am sure I was done around 3pm.. on the way home..from what I do remember, Kayleigh called Lonnie on the phone and was hysterical. "Papa had a heart attack" was what I heard. Still not sure what I heard was right, I waited for Lonnie to get off the phone. Yes, my dad had a heart attack and was in the hospital.. in Spokane. We talked about how we were going to get there.. drive, that takes 5ish hours... or fly that takes about 60 min. We flew. Again, I dont remember alot.. so not sure how we got the dogs to Kayleigh, Im going to guess she met us at the airport. And now that I write this.. that must be what happened.. because she took our car too. Our flight took off at 8pm and we got into Spokane around 9pm.. got our car and came right to the hospital. When we got to the hospital, my dad was in CICU. Lonnie had called one of my best friends from when I was little, Barbara Jenkins and told her about my dad, she met us at the hospital. I am sure that I freaked out seeing him.. tubes and wires all over him. I did sleep a little on the floor of the room he was in and then ended up going to his house to sleep some more.
Tuesday May 21, 2013
Today we were back up to the hospital bright and early.. I had to be told what happend all over again. During the night Monday, my dad woke up not being able to breath. He called his neighbor Joan, who told him to call 911 ! My dad did and the ambulance came and took him to Holy Family Hospital. However, they told them that they were not equipped to care for him and transferred him to SHMC. So they did. During this time, my dad was able to tell them it was ok to tube him and do the stints/balloons but nothing else.. No shocking No CPR nothing. So thats what they did. They put a tube down this throat and put 5 stints in and 2 balloons to help his heart. They had him medicaly out with drugs. It was a long wait.
Wed. May 22, 2013
No real change in dad.
Thurs. May 23 2013
Today the took out a balloon and are talking that they may take the tube out on Friday.. :) So happy to hear this !!
Friday May 24, 2013
We got to my dads room around 830am. My Dad was awake !! Not sure what was going on and freaked out !! They took the tube out of his throat and we got to talk a little. It was hard for him to speak. I told him that he had a heart attack and where he was.. he could not believe it and started crying. I thought that he was doing better because he was hungry.. always a good sign. And he was thirsty. Although, we had to limit his intake because of having the tube down his throat, it was swollen and water could end up in his lungs. They had a speech therapist come in and watch him swallow. He seemed to do ok with the thicker things like pudding and a thick cranberry juice. At around 1pm, things started going south. He was having a very hard time breathing and was coughing alot. They asked him if he wanted a tube down again and he said NO. The put what I call a "wind machine" on his face to push air into his lungs. He fought that and took it off a few times. At one point, we took the mask off and he told me to "let him go" .. so now it was up to me.. Do I keep him here to live the way he didnt want to? Or do I let him go? I love my Dad.. and have never wanted to do anything that he told me not to... so, I said we had to let him go. Doctors came in and said that liquid was back in his lungs which caused Pulminary Edema. He was coughing up bloody foam. They said it would not be long before he passed. We moved him up to the 7th floor in a private room and waited. He was awake and was in pain. Even with the morphine. At 330am I told the nurse to go ahead and give him more drugs to help with the pain. He is resting comfortably. (Barb, Kimberlee and De came to see him)
Sat. May 25, 2013
Still resting comfortably. No real change. Barb and Kimberlee came to visit.
Sunday May 26, 2013
Still no real change.. still resting. (Barb and Joey came to visit in the lunchroom)
Monday May 27, 2013
Still resting.. losing weight. But still hanging on. Told him it was ok to leave. Said to go and be with Mom. That I loved him and would not be upset. That he was a strong man, but it was ok to go. And that it was not goodbye.. but see you again someday.
Tues. May 28, 2013
Still resting.. no real change
Wed. May 29, 2013
Today, as I was sitting next to my Dad.. I thought, I would ask the nurses to give him a bath. Also, thought that it may make his temp. go down. So, they said they would come in around 10-10:30am and give him one. They came in and Lonnie and I left and went downstairs to get some coffee.. I then let my friend Cindy know that we were down there and she came also for her lunch. Lonnie said he need to go back up to the room and do some more work. But I had been in the room for 3 days and only left three times, so I was staying downstairs with Cindy. At about 11:50am I said I needed to go back upstairs and headed up. I got to the room about noon and looked at my Dad.. he looked different, but was cleaned up and shaved. But his breathing was "off" to me. I asked Lonnie to come over and look, as Lonnie came over, my Dad took a breath and I let out a sigh of releif. But that was his last breath. He waited for me to come back. I was a mess to say the least. But also knew that my Dad was pain free now and with my Mom, who had died many years earlier.
Thurs. May 30, 2013
We are doing lots of running around today.. dealing with the Will, House and other things.. have not stopped.
Friday May 31, 2013
Did some more running around, took Coco (Dads dog) to the groomers.
Sat. June 1, 2013
Started loading up boxes. Thinking of having a sale.. but so tired, not sure if I want too. Went to De's house for lunch and spent time with her and Kimberlee and her family.. nice to get away for things and try to be happy.
Sun. June 2, 2013
Got up this morning.. drinking coffee in Dads house.. on his computer.. feels a little strange him not here.. was telling Lonnie yesterday, that I feel like he is going to walk through the door and yell at us for moving things around. I always hated getting in trouble and tried very hard not too.. hated to dissapoint him. Still feel like I am going to be grounded for going through his things. Maybe I am still in denial of his death. ....Looking forward to taking my Dad's dog Coco home with us.. or maybe to Kayleigh's house. She is a great dog !
Tues. June 4, 2013
Today Lonnie went to get the truck to start loading up the things we are taking over to our house. Its strange to me to be doing this.. The things we are not taking are going to go to the Mission, to help others. That is something my Dad always liked to do. Help other's that needed it. I did keep a few things like my Dads glasses ect.
Wed. June 5, 2013
We dropped off the house keys at the bank today. Ate lunch and headed out to come home. Lonnie, Coco and myself in the cab of the U-haul turck, pulling the car behind. It is good to be home !
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